3:07 am

Why do we watch movies or read books? Is it an escape from reality, into fantasy?

Some would say that it's about relating one self in various environments and situations. Is this kind of media good? Yes, you have a better sense in language and you might learn things. But then again, isn't books and movies setting some kind of unwritten rules to how to live life, starting with something every simple, blowing up to a big complicated bubble and then in the end, though the earth just exploded and you are floating through dark space alone, there is some kind of happy ending?

I realized I should stop comparing real life with fiction, no matter how realistic it sounds. Fiction is man made crap, while life is a twist of destiny, faith and will power. Though generally both sucks in the end...

Readers be aware of that this post excludes any sort of fact books or learning documentaries, strict fantasy and fiction.

O.C. a cure for insomnia?!

It's nearly 4 am and I am still awake with a "I-woke-up-by-the-garbage-can-on-a-park-bench" hair due. Just managed to watch 6 episodes of O.C and 2 1/2 episodes of Grey's anatomy and I don't feel much more then totally wasted and hung over.

All day I have been feeling tinny whinny bit of asthmatic, alright I admit. My brain has been craving and still is craving for fresh oxygen and not the air going through a slimy gue stuck in my throat! I am out of medication and I can't call my doctor during the weekend unless I go to the emergency. And then again we are talking about me... don't think so!

Maybe the brains reacting to the lack of oxygen, which has put me to a serious case of "blue". I am a person who mostly like to talk out my problems, but during my blue period I tend to get overly depressed which leads to insomnia. Do I even make sense?!

I have had my periods of books, Bollywood even Grey's during insomnia, but first time in my life I turn to O.C thinking that I just might fall asleep! No I manage to watch 6 maybe 7 (I am not keeping count) of episodes. Though thinking how I annoyed I got through the 1st, 2nd and 3rd season, it's a miracle knowing that I managed to watch the 4th and the final season and even liking it! Is it because of the lack of oxygen? We might never get to know! But I just realized I am Taylor. A mentally twisted person with good intentions. Just thar she is a super controlfreak and I am a rather super uncontrolled freak?

Anyway forgive me for the text above... this is the closest thing to DRUNK I will ever get.

The way I am...

I am obsessed with the song The way I am- Ingrid Michealson, so I did own my version of the lyrics!

If you were hungry, then I would cook you biryani.
You need a glass, I'd pour you pani.

Cuz I love the way you say "Where's my dinner?".
And you take me the way I am.

If you are warm, I'll turn on the AC.
Your neck is aching, I'd put balm. (Tiger balm)

Cuz I love the way you call me "Bodhu".
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you patches when you stop smoking.
Caress your head while getting bald.

Cuz I love you more than I love saris.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

What a Mess!

My baby is broken, not only it's the L key, which I have to copy paste most of the time... but it's also the charger and the battery...
So is it time to buy a new one?!

I've realised I blog in my mind more then I blog in real. I always think of updating and writing something really creative.. but I hardly get through it. So many projects half done! And the summer is just getting shorter for everyday!
I am really starting to worry about my future like my mum... it's all cloudy.

Ps. I updated Mayaboti after ages!